Happy Holidays...yeah right

I'm beginning to hate this time of year. It's about family and being together...but it never feels that way. When I finally do get together with my family, I always feel some how apart. Like everything is going on with out me. Getting talked over like I'm not even there. I also miss my mom around this time of year. I don't know, just always seemed like she'd listen...even when she didn't want to talk. It doesn't feel like it's been six years now. Some time it hurts just like it was yesterday. Like it hurts now.